Ever since I quit my office job last July and have worked so hard to make lifestyle changes to better my health, I get this idea that I am "better" (i wonder what it means that the first time i typed that i typed "butter" instead of "better"...lol) Yeah, I still have little flare-ups: lymph nodes swell, low-grade fever, body aches, etc.. but it's nothing like before. So i think & wish in my heart that I'm coming through this and that all those dreams for my future will come true.
And then there's a day like yesterday. On Friday night at 8:30 I got a call f/m my Scentsy director that she was not going to be able to make a women's show the next morning but I could go. So I said ok--it is a great opportunity to build business and all that. But I was scrambling that night trying to find what I would need and running to set up my table--went to bed at one and couldn't sleep until after 2...didn't sleep well at all... And then a day of being "on" all day and giving sales pitches from 9:30-3 the next day just wore me out. I came home w/a sore throat & headache and a full-blown symptom flare up and spent the rest of the day in bed.
Today I am hurting and ever so fatigued. I have so much to do, my house is a mess, next week is the last week before classes start back for the students. I'm not prepared. And I feel discouraged. I've wasted time over my break and haven't accomplished what I wanted to. But more than that, days like this scare me. Will I ever really be able to have kids if I get worn out so easily? I'm not so sure. I'm not good at staying on top of what needs to be done anymore. My heart hurts.