Monday, March 15, 2010

I have days and moments when I think "I will never have children" usually out of frustration and aggravation.  As you can probably imagine, these moments arrive quite frequently since I work at a pediatric office--generally brought out by hearing children screaming and throwing tantrums about seeing the doctor and/or getting shots.  (we have very few happy children in the office...I guess that's what happens when you are only there b/c you are sick or getting a checkup!).  Sometimes I wonder, if we ever do have children, will I just automatically tune out their cries since I have been ignoring fussy kids every day for nine years?  I have definitely become jaded.  hmm...

Well, today was one of those moments.  At the grocery store.  Yikes.  There was a woman behind me in the checkout lane with a very rambunctious boy (probably around 5-7) and there were just no boundaries!  He kept picking up my groceries--produce in particular--and pretending to eat it or coughing on it or moving it around.  And she just let him!  GAH! It got on my nerves.  I wasn't rude and just tried to ignore it, but it irked me.  I hope I'm not just being unwarrantedly annoyed, but seriously, would you just let your child pick up someone else's food and cough on it?  yuck! 

And I thought how children have minds of their own but don't have those boundaries unless we enforce them.  And being responsible for that scares me.  I'm sure that mom was tired and annoyed herself, and I don't want to just judge her or her parenting skills, but I must admit that I did. 

Just thoughts....still not ready to have babies, that is for sure!


  1. haha...i understand. I usually think about how nice it is to be *kid free* when I'm lounging all night after work doing NOTHING. That won't happen whenever the babes come along. But I also try to tell myself that many more good things will come with the things I'll loose!

  2. oh ew! I would never ever ever let Charlotte do that. You can stand in line in front of us in the grocery and your food will be safe. (although I did let her chew on a package of dried fruit once and forgot to wipe it off before I put it on the checkout belt... the cashier was not thrilled... oops!)
    Secondly, I hope the weekend with Charlotte was not one of your "I will never have children moments" - though my crazy Sunday mornings may very well be one of those!

  3. I can relate to your feelings. I don't have kids yet and I often feel like I'm not sure I'm cut out for it...for many reasons like the ones you mention.

  4. I'm with you! I worked in a toy store for 7 years. It was the best birth control EVER. I had those "I never want to have children" thoughts at least once a day. There are some parents that just don't know how to lay down the law and tell their kids "no" every once in awhile! Now that I'm older (and out of that environment) I've revised my thoughts on it, but there are still so many times that I worry that I'll be just as bad as those parents I hated.

  5. oh man! I can totally relate. I'm still wondering if the "I can't wait to have kids" feeling will ever come around!